Lady Gaga isn’t shy about talking about her past — she recently spoke about being bullied and dealing with bulimia in high school. Last night on The Conversation With Amanda de Cadenet, Gaga discussed a myriad of things like sex, love, and her cocaine habit.
Gaga, dressed in a black lace dress and veil, told de Cadenet that when she was 19-years-old and depressed, cocaine became a way to fill the void:
“I was very depressed when I was 19 because I decided to pursue music, decided to drop out of school, told my parents I didn’t want any money from them. I got three jobs, and I just hit the ground running, did it on my own. And I would go back to my apartment every day and I would just sit there. It was quiet and it was lonely. It was still. It was just my piano and myself. I had a television and I would leave it on all the time just to feel like somebody was hanging out with me. And especially during the period when I was doing cocaine. It was like the drug was my friend. And I never did it with other people. It’s such a terrible way to fill that void, because it just adds to that void, really, because it’s not real. It’s endless and at a certain point, I just began to feel sick.”
Wow. Good for her for coming (and staying) clean. Watch the full episode here.